OK so, I’m a day behind. #shocker
Yesterday was full – work and kids and drama and stress. An emotionally and physically draining day. No break from 7-6 so when I found myself with the house all to myself for an hour I kind of wanted to check out.
Like so often when that happens though I found myself straightening up the house. OK… really bitching (WHILE cleaning) about being the maid for four people who really should be able to turn off lights, or sweep up dog hair, or put their dishes in the sink, or their trash in the can, or their dirty clothes in the hamper…
I wasn’t feeling especially grateful. I was just tired and annoyed.
I bitch a lot about things that other people would be grateful for. First world problems – we all have them.
I’m working on perspective.
Truth is, I have a life that keeps me busy, a house to clean, people & dogs to share it with me, and occasionally a little time to myself to appreciate it. I need to be more grateful for that. It would, at the very least, probably make the tasks more tolerable.
Lately, I’ve been working on showing genuine gratitude to those around me. Sending thank you notes, just because – not for the receipt of something. Thanking my co-workers for the little (and sometimes big) things they do that make my job easier. Telling my friends how I much appreciate them always being there for me. Like the house and the clutter, I was finding myself not appreciating the people that surround me. And that’s a shame. I’m getting better at thanking others, and recognizing the part they play in my daily life. (Not perfect, still working on it.)
All too often, I think that what I do at work or at home or in the world is thankless or not even seen. That leads to resentment which is what got me to this point in the first place. So, I’m also trying to thank myself more – recognize and appreciate the role I play in all of this. True gratitude like so many other things, I am learning, comes from within.
Thank you for being here. Thank you for taking this journey of self discovery with me. Thank you for listening.